There is always some madness in love.
But there is also always some reason in madness.
Friedrich Nietzsche
But there is also always some reason in madness.
Friedrich Nietzsche
Showing posts with label reflections. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reflections. Show all posts
Early Warning
We've been having a lot of fun haven't we? I write most everyday, and you come over and read. It works for me. It felt synergistic, didn't it? I am more disciplined than ever about writing every day.What you don't yet know, is that 40 days from today, I will have completed my one lap around the sun. I thought it only fair to give you a heads up.
Maybe I'll keep going like this, another lap around the sun.
Maybe I will start another blog... the "Margins Blog". It's for people who leave room in their lives for things to happen. They aren't so duty bound to their schedule, they aren't legalistic about daily attendance... I'm thinking about it and a few other opportunitues. I've been asked to post on the Music and Arts forum and I'd be honered to do that. If all the daily blogging were channelled into filler articles for one year, I might develop an income base. I think it's a worthy goal.
I'm weighing the options. You've been a really faithful reader, so whatever I decide, I promise to let you know. I won't leave you hanging if there is anyway around it, okay?
Of course, if you have an opinion, I'd love to hear it.
Bounce
It's hard to say why I'm driven at all. I heard someone say, Hope springs eternal. I guess in a nutshell, that's me.
I can have the worst day and some how, the feeling comes over me that maybe tomorrow will be a better day. It isn't always. But I keep on believing that it could be.
Sometimes when it was just the two of us, things were really hard on my daughter and me. I'd wonder to myself, what is it all for? Is there a point to any of this?
Sometimes, she would get down. I'd tell her, believing it with all my heart,"It won't always be like this. It's going to get better."
Maybe because I want to believe when we're hitting rock bottom, it has to get better. There's no where else to go from there but up. Have you ever seen a hard rubber ball hit the floor? It can only bounce as high as the force with which it hit.
Here's to falling harder. And while you think about that, listen to Martina sing Anyway.
I can have the worst day and some how, the feeling comes over me that maybe tomorrow will be a better day. It isn't always. But I keep on believing that it could be.
Sometimes when it was just the two of us, things were really hard on my daughter and me. I'd wonder to myself, what is it all for? Is there a point to any of this?
Sometimes, she would get down. I'd tell her, believing it with all my heart,"It won't always be like this. It's going to get better."
Maybe because I want to believe when we're hitting rock bottom, it has to get better. There's no where else to go from there but up. Have you ever seen a hard rubber ball hit the floor? It can only bounce as high as the force with which it hit.
Here's to falling harder. And while you think about that, listen to Martina sing Anyway.
Seeds and Butterflies
Julia makes me crazy with ideas.
I have been working on those insane pages. I've missed a few days even. I may do as my friend Kim, who says some weeks were 8, 9 0r 11 days.
I like the sound of an 11 day week.
What insights do I glean? That everything can be brought to life with words. The muslim woman getting a sleep study done might be of interest to you. We were in the sleep study clinic today getting a new mask for my beloved.
Or maybe you'd like to hear what we found out about those new notebooks at Microcenter? Or how much faster my laptop runs now that I got a 4 gig ready boost? (Really fast!)
And like Jack, ideas trip off the brain and sound so promising...
But wasn't that my just a few days ago printing off all those pages? Hundreds of pages of incubating essay ideas that are like money in the bank if I'd just eat my peas and carrots and drink my milk and give birth to them.
And stop running errands long enough to have a linear thought. I love vacations, the idea that when it ends, I will have saved up ideas like seed packets, sprinkle them out into the soil of my mind and after a few hours of watering, they will turn into magic beanstalks.
Julia's book is like magic butterflies in a way. All we have to do is catch them... and while you think about that,
listen to one of my favorite tunes by Mazzy Star.
I have been working on those insane pages. I've missed a few days even. I may do as my friend Kim, who says some weeks were 8, 9 0r 11 days.
I like the sound of an 11 day week.
What insights do I glean? That everything can be brought to life with words. The muslim woman getting a sleep study done might be of interest to you. We were in the sleep study clinic today getting a new mask for my beloved.
Or maybe you'd like to hear what we found out about those new notebooks at Microcenter? Or how much faster my laptop runs now that I got a 4 gig ready boost? (Really fast!)
And like Jack, ideas trip off the brain and sound so promising...
But wasn't that my just a few days ago printing off all those pages? Hundreds of pages of incubating essay ideas that are like money in the bank if I'd just eat my peas and carrots and drink my milk and give birth to them.
And stop running errands long enough to have a linear thought. I love vacations, the idea that when it ends, I will have saved up ideas like seed packets, sprinkle them out into the soil of my mind and after a few hours of watering, they will turn into magic beanstalks.
Julia's book is like magic butterflies in a way. All we have to do is catch them... and while you think about that,
listen to one of my favorite tunes by Mazzy Star.
A Dozen Contemplations
Today is Evaluate Your Life Day.Does that mean on a scale of one to ten?
Perhaps you'll reflect on your accomplishments. Consider your glory days. Maye it's time to dust off those trophies and iron your place ribbons. Peruse those Certificates of Achievement, those diplomas.
Dig out the photos of you accepting your kudos at the awards banquet... Maybe they mean, you should consider how far you've traveled from you early days.
Compared to your childhood, are you better or worse off?
Or maybe you've impacted people's lives in a positive way.
How far have you come?
Did you get where you were going? Most of the time?
Were there things you left until later?
Left undone?
Left to chance?
Have you enjoyed the journey?
Do you still have goals?
What is your ultimate destiny?
Have you accomplished the one thing would ice your cake?
Have you accomplished the one thing would ice your cake?
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